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No injury pain this morning, but lots of sensation — less in lumbar and more in thoracic, sternum and psoas. Which is exactly what I was aiming for, though always funny to actually FEEL it — I’d imagined this is what I wanted, but now that I feel it, I am surprised — it being a new sensation and all.

My abandon in the kapo entry and in the pose: thought about it a bit this morning. I was eager, after 8 months of practicing on my own, to have an assist. Threw myself into it. Isn’t there something humorous about this? Poor VBG looked a little stunned, both at my quick, fervent request (“Can I have an adjustment in kapotasana?”) during “play time” when people usually do fun things like handstands and pincha mayurasana, and at my immediate swan dive (backwards though it might have been) into the pose.

So why was that so easy (the abandon)? Duh, because my teacher was there. Because I had the opportunity and wanted to grab it.

There’s something profound in all of this, in relation to the student/teacher relationship, but I’m disinclined — at least at this point — to analyze it too closely.

Definitely, though, this was the biggest “gap” I’ve ever experienced between my mind when I practice by myself and my mind when I practice with a teacher. I built what I did by myself over the past number of months, but I couldn’t deploy it fully until I was under the watchful eye of VBG.