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Curious practice this morning. Work is very stressful due to upcoming conference — people are pretty much completely insane and over-adrenalized, myself included. And then yesterday afternoon, two requests from another department set me off.

Which made me insane… or rather, insaner.

I pitched a fit. Well, my kind of fit. All things being relative. People who know me know that my tracking you down to say, “I am really angry about this and here’s why” is pretty dramatic. ‘Cause generally speaking, I’m laid back and happy. It feels better that way.

So this morning, I had all kinds of left over energy in my mind and emotions about being so angry. My mind went around in circles, mulling and mulling.

Know what, though? It was like my body was out of the loop. Flexy, happy, open.

Interesting. I wonder if this is because of the training of daily practice? The body can just do its thing regardless the circumstances?

Whatever. I’ll take it.

I did wonder, the other day, though: if we practice to escape our conditioned existence, isn’t it kinda contradictory to do the same practice day after day? Isn’t it just a DIFFERENT conditioned existence?