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My motivation is a little off. Sunday was the usual day off after a really deep Saturday practice. And yesterday I found myself thinking about Monday and Tuesday practices. Hard to motivate. Why? Because I’m going to have three weeks off starting Wednesday. Elective cosmetic surgery is the reason. Gonna get my eyes done.

I’ve wanted to do this for close to a decade. But it wasn’t feasible during the single-mom years, and then not during the “save for My Gift’s tuition” years, and then the new house — and when all of those things were finally squared away, I found myself reluctant to interrupt the new Ashtanga practice.

So here I am at last, with a very comfortable primary practice, and some progress into intermediate (though how far I should be going into it is still up in the air, at least to my mind). A good time, if there is such a thing, for a break.

As I said, though, this morning’s practice was a little hard to motivate, as I’m looking at a long break anyhow, and I’m also preoccupied with the upcoming surgery. Decided to just go ahead and do primary. Once I got to setu bandhasana, though, I figured I’d take a shot at pasasana. And don’t you know, I got the bind. Just on one side, and with my heels raised a bit, but a lovely moment nonetheless. I thought it was far, far away, the day that I would get that bind without assistance.

Knocked off there. That was enough for today.

Tomorrow, I imagine I will be even more preoccupied. But it’s settled already: it’ll be primary and pasasana. Many thoughts, of course, during practice — but the peacefulness still underlying.